I don't want to grow!!

I wanna be 3 y-o again!

I wanna go back to those times when my biggest concern was if I wanted a strawberry or banana yougurt for my afternoon snack.

The time when I believed that growing up I would be a queen!

The time when a hug from my mom was enough to make monsters go away.

That time when a small decision could dictate the future of barbie dancer that ended up with the doctor ken instead of the vet one!

That time when I had plenty of time to do whatever I wanted.

That time when I was still not sure if I wanted to be a teacher, a policewoman or an actress.

That time when...

Thinking back.... Things didn't change that much...

I still have doubts about which yougurt to eat (and I still eat baby food)...

A hug from my mom doesn't make monsters go away like it used to but certainly makes them much smaller...

I am still confused about what I want to be when I "grow up"....

I still have plenty of time, it's just that my agenda is too full...

Back then, decisions would only affect dolls stories, nowadays they affect another story, my own!

And above all, I still believe that one day I'm gonna be a queen, because not all the queens need a crown and a castle!

Oops I did it again....

Hello, this is me back to myself....

Once upon a time, a long time ago, I promised to myself that this was not going to happen again, that I wouldn't be like that anymore. It was time for me to change and the only way that I found to do that was walking away, and in fact I did, for some time had the chance to just be someone else. Of course it was not like a total withdraw because those things kept happening to me. But I pretended that I didn't know, that I was too naive to see...

Some weeks ago, I decided that the time to give it another chance had arrived... Now I know I was wrong. I thought it would be different, I thought that part myself was gone, that I would never ever have to pass through this situation again, but once again I was wrong...

I don't know what to do... It's killing me actually, I shouldn't have... This shouldn't have... This was just not supposed to happen. Not again! I should have known better... A little distraction, and when I looked around I recognized where I was, where I am, this is familiar, this is the place that I did not want to visit again... It is all my fault, I know it and I'm so sorry babe... I really didn't meant to do this.... I'm sorry...

You shouldn't have fell in love with me

Illusions...

Some days I wake up and it's like I'm living in a dream where everything is perfect, everything can happen...
Other days I wake up in reality, and what I see, compared to my "other days" makes me feel sad...

What am I doing? Living in this damn world that wants everything to be like a fairy tale! This is not true, this cannot happen! I'm not 6 anymore... I guess I just heard too much "they lived happy ever after" stories when I was a kid.

It's so bad when the alarm rings and I have to open my eyes and see what's there in front of me... It's so unfair! I wanna live in that world but I'm stuck here...

There's nothing I can do about it!

Be happy!!

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Don't forget about this...

Above all, YOU'VE GOT TO BE HAPPY!!

Jinxed!!

For the ones that don't know what the word means, here it goes a definition:

jinx - bad luck, or a person or thing that is believed to bring bad luck

So... taking into account this definition I can conclude that I must be jinxed!

I know what happened to me, it's simple... When I got to the door of luck it was already closed... The notice on the door said: "Sorry honey but you'll have to go to planet earth just like that, we've sold out"...

One day I went to this dinner and there was a guy that supposedly could read your hands... What did he say to me, you ask... Nothing that I didn't know already... He said and I quote "Claudia, you either have a lot of luck or you either have a lot of bad luck"... oh... I was looking for something new dummy!!

You know what, I never was supersticious, for obvious reasons... but, sometimes... I just don't know... I feel like I should be. Oh! sorry... You don't know what those "obvious reasons" are right? I was born on a Friday 13th.... Urray!

Do I deserve it? I really don't know... But in the end I'm gonna be okay!

P.S - you might be thinking "why is she saying that she is jinxed? I actually think she is not", you are wrong, just a brief in the technological field (I'm not gonna enter in the love one otherwise one page wouldn't be enough!): my ipod had a hearth attack last week and now it turns out that my computer is dead, what's coming next? I'm gonna wait to see!!