But I did...

I knew... For a long time actually. I guess I just didn't want to admit it. I was in one of those situations that you say, if you don't say it I won't know. But I did.

The thing is that, I'm not a beginner in this matter. It happened to me once, a while ago... We promissed everything would just stay like it was before, and that nothing would change. But it did.

I'm petrified, frozen, I don't know what to do. Hurting you is the last thing that I want to do. Heard I'm quite good at it... I've never wanted to hurt anyone. But I did.

At that time, I thought that I had to run, cause it's only when I'm running that I feel safe. I run and even though what I wanted was to run from him, I knew, deep down that what I really wanted the most was to run for him (because he was the one that could help me in a situation like that). Running was going to tear us appart. I didn't know that, I was just trying to protect him. I shouldn't have walked away. But I did.

He was my biggest friend. I didn't want to loose him. But I did...